The brain is one of the most overwhelming concepts to reflect upon. It is a mysterious vehicle, one that we are not able to understand entirely, but that we also have no option but to trust. It dictates the individual’s experience—everything you are and everything you know begins and exists in your mind.
Accepting this by blind faith generates a great deal of silent pressure. You trust the brain’s judgment: what you see with your eyes is what you believe to be real. When you hold an object and feel its weight in your hands, you trust that you are experiencing the truth without question. Consistency develops this trust between you and the brain: an apple is undoubtedly an apple because it has always been the same. So what happens, then, when consistency is removed from the equation?
If I realize that my brain is producing false realities, that poses a new question: if the brain exhibits visual lies while being aware of it, is it truly playing tricks under this circumstance? If a new consistent pattern develops, in turn creating a new reality, is this reality any less real than the reality you understood previously?
These questions were considered during the creation of Passing Through: a series that explores the intersection at which the imagination meets reality. Losing the ability to differentiate between imagination and reality is a fear that I have always had. However, being able to deliberately integrate the imagination into my reality is a skill I care very much about developing. While playing with these concepts in my mind, it is evident that what I crave the most in this context is control.
The door, a theme that is depicted throughout this series, puts the viewer in a position that requires control and decision-making. What do you do with the door when you stand before it?
While existing within this crossroads, Passing Through was created to preserve these special moments in my mind: the apprehension one feels before a decision is made, accepting the inability to understand the brain in its entirety, and using the imagination to dream bigger and bigger each day.
Digital Inkjet, Acrylic Paint (2012)